getting stuck on decluttering.
in 2017 we had a lot of loss and I was so busy caring for others - cancer care, elderly, heart surgery d mom, worrying about dd younger's health and at the same time I was trying to learn so many different things. I didn't realize how crazy it was until I went back into my calendar/journal/bill lister. No wander I was stressed. I went through my papers that I threw together for learning and haven't been able to touch them. I was crazy
All of this had been in my 3 season room. Along with my baking etc. stuff that I was over doing as well. And I was working on the house.
dd older brought up the idea that d mom's calling, daily (most often) time together, talking about her health (even though the dr. says she is like a healthy 60 year old) and her worries and anxiety about her health may be triggering all the stress and care I had to do before. I was wondering why caring for my grandmother daily (physical and daily) and then my grand parents - not the responsibility physically but the emotional well being of both my d grandparents seemed so much easier. I was much much younger and healthier (newly married and then have both dd's) and the volunteer work etc. was busy but not stressed. I think she is right! my calendar showed the amount of work and stress I was under. elderly and heavy cancer care for a year + of d uncle, his loss on feb 5th, work on his house big time - dealing with his daughter, loss of sweet d mil same month, March 1 d mom's heart surgery and after care. makes a lot of sense - then trying to do all my learning and activities was crazy. don't get me wrong I enjoy talking to d mom and spending time with her. Now I have to figure out how to reduce the stress.
I want to work on the 3 season room but I will leave the bird alone a bit so it can rest and then when dd is home try to find it.