I really didn't find this trip to be much fun. My trigeminal neuralgia in my face is kicking in, and I'm needing to take more meds, which is making me feel lousy. I was nauseated on the trip there, and got car sick going out to dinner on Thursday evening. Needed an a.m. nap on Friday because nauseated too. When I wasn't feeling nauseated I was just feeling "off." And I had to sit in the front seat of cars, which left having to interact more with driver to be polite.
I always forget how particular the hostess is about everything, and I feel nervous about sitting anything down or doing the wrong thing there. I left the refrigerator cracked while pouring milk for coffee a step away and she stopped to tut and close it. And their home, and guest room, is so cluttered it feels oppressive to me. There was hardly room to sit anything down in the guest bedroom. My night table didn't have room for anything but phone and glasses and CPAP went to floor.
And the worst part was just it was so noisy. They had another couple there and there were always conversations going and the TV going and just too too much.
The passing of the woman from our community really gets to me - I probably hadn't spoken to her more than a handful of times, but she was just so lovely and vibrant. She posted once, several years ago, that they would probably not have children because they both had fertility issues, then more than a year later she was pregnant and now has a two year old. I probably identify with her for that reason. Facebook has been full of beautiful photos of her.
So thankful I'm home. I also forgot my computer cord/charger and my next Best self journal which I was to start today. I hadn't started it except to put in name and contact info, and I have another here so that's not an issue but I will need my computer cord/charger very soon.
Just feeling down and out, and needing that down time. Got home from a week away last Sunday, then we had dd's accident, cancellation of my colonoscopy, and this trip. I need to stay home. A foot of snow would make me very happy!
I owe you all a SHEM:
There is nothing like staying at home for real comfort.
Jane Austen
Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year find you a better [wo]man. Ben Franklin