I wish I could climb up in a clubhouse in a tree, with good walls and no bugs or bees, and big windows, and a good soft quilt & pillow... and I could just lie there for a long while and read and sleep and listen to the breeze... maybe even stay there through a light rain shower.I've basically done that on my couch for the past 24 hours (I slept in bed, though) and I've just been taking it easy on myself this week. The loss of daunt has been very stressful and depressing, and it has also created a lot of anxiety -- helping my dmom, who has lost a sister after 56 years... wondering what my dcousins will expect of me to do as "my part" to help look after him... feeling guilty because I guess I do carry a bit of a grudge -- (1) at him for the way he talked about daunt and he hung up on me and (2) at dcousins for ignoring us while including him and daunt in all their holiday doings.
I guess his dementia was showing through somewhat in that conversation. It was not the last time I talked to him before daunt passed away, but any other time since, daunt was on the phone with us. And -- as I've been over with y'all ad nauseam -- I know they included him because of sympathy for daunt, AND other daunt/cousins' dmom probably felt an obligation since he WAS her actual brother. But honestly... I just pray that somehow, someway, he is convinced of his need to go to assisted living. His sister is in no position to care for him, and none of the rest of us are, either.
Dmom is taking this very hard. She is dealing with a lot of anger and the feeling of how unfair it is -- which truthfully, is how a lot of us feel.
And of course, I am dealing with a lot of anxiety re: dmom and her own health. She is SOOO unsteady on her feet. I just don't know how long it will be until she has a serious fall.
Anyway. I guess I'm just here for the daily downer. In about 20 minutes, I have to take dgs to ball practice. DS and DDIl are gone to dgd's game. DH is watching March Madness. I don't mind -- I plan to sit in the car and read, and I may take time to walk around the parking lot to get my 15 minutes in.
I have to iron when I get home, but that's okay too... it's a good tv night Law & Order, Law & Order SVU, and Young Sheldon.
Sending big (((HUGS))) to you, Rose, and you, LadyM! AND CATHY!!!
I'm so glad things are better for you, Nancy, (about the "triggers" with the mail, things like that), and
I'm so glad things are more "normal" at home for blessed & dh!
And WOW -- big congratulations to the new homeowners, Harriet!!! My goodness, HRH is acting just like... ME!
LOL.
Worrying is what tiggers do best.
This is as far as topic review takes me... and I must get out the door with dgs! How did it get to be 5:45??? POOF!
EDITING — made it to practice. Dgs is out there in right field. I walked around the park, made a loop that took almost 15 minutes, so I’m going to count exercise done!
Now I’m going to sit back and read.