(((Twins))) That is so not fair!!! But, as you said, you ARE in better shape for this surgery, so maybe it will go well and recovery will be even faster!
Focus ... hmmm... don't seem to have much focus today but I have accomplished a bit --
* s2s/Bible reading/morning stretches
* man came to pay rent
* sent text to former preacher's wife -- he was the preacher who baptized me and another friend sent me a link to a sermon he preached last Sunday in our little Tiny Town. I just felt like I wanted to talk to him for a little while. They have not answered the text, however (I got the phone number from one of the wife's cousins.)
* went to post office and bank -- ran into classmate and got another address for the stack of thank you's that have no addresses
* called dbil's friend who engraves tombstones, got his recommendations re: where to buy
* called 4 monument places, got ballpark/starting figures for what I have in mind
* talked to ds/ddil a bit
* played the piano for awhile (I've been doing this just about every day for the last week. I play poorly, but the songs -- old hymns mostly -- are comforting)
* will need to pick up ds and dgrands in about an hour -- IF tonight's game isn't rained out! DDIL is working hospital booth at local Strawberry Festival. I did not go to the festival -- not really interested in that kind of crowd.
* DGD will spend the night with me
Yesterday, I just had a Day. Cried talking to dmom... sat in the bathroom floor where dh passed out and cried... held dh's shirt and cried... I was just a mess.
Going through some spiritual warfare moments too... I think Satan tries harder to get at me, find my weaknesses in self-doubt and worries, at times like this. I was having a rough day. DS and DGS talked me through it and (as usual) put a better perspective on all the runaway thoughts whirling through my head. At one point, I told dgs, "I don't want to cause YOU to have problems with this sort of thing, by listening to me." DS said: "He's got more sense than you."
We all knew exactly in what spirit that was intended.
I am feeling much better today.
Waving to ALL of you! I am sooo sleepy, might take a quick 30 minute nap. Maybe that would refresh me for the game tonight.