My eating is just totally out of control. I have got to put a lock on the kitchen cabinets & refrigerator or something. I have hit an all-time high for me, and it is getting depressing.
The walking just makes me want to eat more, I think, but I know it has to be good for me to get outside and walk...
* sigh * I just have had no self-control whatsoever when it comes to FOOD. It looks good; I eat it.
I eat when I'm tired, sleepy, bored, whatever. Very seldom b/c I'm actually hungry, you might notice.
I've just got to start talking to myself like I would a crazy, out of control child.
NO YOU CANNOT HAVE THAT!
I walked today (only 20 minutes -- 1 mile) and I did NOT start eating crazy stuff when I came back inside... but I'm just getting really depressed about this. All I've wanted to do for the last two days is sleep. Of course, that is about the only time I can keep myself from eating, so in a way it's good, but in another way, it just depresses me more b/c I think, "I should be DOING something..."
Today I have had (so far)
10:30 breakfast -- part of two fried eggs (I only eat the whites, so it's tricky)
-- part of an Egg McMuffin (mainly ate the slice of Canadian bacon, part of one side of the muffin, a few bites of the cheese)
-- Cini-minis (or whatever McD's calls their cinnamon roll things now)
-- banana
-- diet Pepsi
2:30 snack-- bottle of flavored water
-- package of peanut butter crackers
4:30 snack-- bottle of flavored water
-- granola bar (Nature Valley Roasted Nut Crunch, 190 calories, 6 g protein, 6g sugar, 13 g total carbohydrates)
6:00 supper-- diet Pepsi
-- bar-b-que sandwich (just meat & bread)
-- a few potato chips
-- frosted mini wheats for dessert
The pb crackers have 4 g sugar & 4g protein. It seems that if I can keep my protein equal to or more than my sugars, I do much better. The frosted mini wheats have LOTS of sugar and very very little protein. Being "whole wheat" is not a very good thing in that case. But of course, even a child would probably know that they are NOT a health food. * sigh *