Postby Kathryn-in-Canada » Thu Mar 14, 2013 8:07 am
Slept well enough last night that I could get out of bed after 8 hours instead of 10. I'm on the treadmill. No idea if it is a good idea or not. Heart rate is not overly high so I'm assuming I'm getting enough oxygen despite the cold and the workout is not making me cough (although my nose just started running so I'm sniffing since the kleenex is on the other side of the room.)
Knees hurt more than they did, it must be the new glute exercises. The bike also twinged my back but not enough to not do it. But I was definitely limping the day after being on it which would be what I'd expect. I did only 5 minutes, twice on it as per her instructions.
I'm just a bundle of emotions, full of stinkin, thinkin. I'm tired of feeling not 100%. I've had so few good days, it is as if I'm always wading through deep water instead of walking along a gentle shore. I can't get things to go well for more than a day or two at a time and then something else comes up that sets me back. I think I've lost over 30 pounds in the last year but my weight is exactly what it was a year ago because I've gained the weight back over and over. Down 5, hold for 2 - 3 weeks, up 5 because of illness or knee pain, or traveling or Christmas, or two periods back to back. Get back to health, lose the 5 and then repeat.
My high in the past 14 months was 174, my low 162 (after 2 weeks of being bed ridden and very little food) and my weight now is about 170 (I'm in my period so I don't know for sure but that's what it was the day my period arrived.)
OKay Given I can gain 3lbs or more with my period or a high-sodium day, I don't worry about weighing in every day because it affects my mood too much. If I'm up after being 'perfect', I analyze everything I eat and still have been 'perfect' than what the heck is the use of trying? On the other hand, if I lose 2lbs despite having a 'bad' day and overeating, I don't consider that the prescription to losing weight. Harriet's healthy habits, day in and day out are what one has to rely on and weighing oneself once every few days will catch a trend (if the mirror and your clothes don't.)
My jeans were way too tight yesterday but my weight the day before was 170. Given that I was wearing these jeans at 178, I either gained 8 pounds in 1 day, or more likely, my body was swollen due to cramps and my period.
So weighing daily isn't the best choice if it messes with your self-esteem/motivation, relying on clothing fit is not foolproof, being 'perfect' doesn't work all the time and 'cheating' helps drop the pounds sometimes. I have no problem losing weight, my problem is I can't stop regaining it.
Our bodies are such complex machines, scientists really don't know what is best for us. Seriously. They really don't know. That's why half the nutritious talk about whole grains and another percentage say to avoid all wheat because it doesn't react in our body the way it used to. Both are just theories, neither have been proven scientifically. Calories in/out is a factor but it has been proven to be not the whole story. Thyroid plays a role but women who have trouble losing weight and get the thyroid fix don't lose excess weight (despite now doing everything 'perfectly.') Metabolism plays a role but there are lots of couch potatoes who are slim.
So you can't let the scales or anything else have power over you. They are just one tool in a large and random toolbox that may or may not be able to 'fix' you.