Postby Kathryn-in-Canada » Sun Jul 05, 2015 2:26 pm
Years ago, I heard the adage: God First, Family Second, Me Last. I'm not sure who is spreading that lousy logic but now that I've been smacked down three times (hepatitis, gall bladder, foot/knees) I'm learning:
1. When I'm desperately ill, I'll cling to God but that's as a lifeline. I can't fully serve God unless I'm reasonably healthy and able to do more than breathe in and breathe out. We get times in our lives when breathing is all we are expected to do and during that time we are allowing others to live out their calling to serve us. But to fully answer our call to God we have to have a handle on our health and we can't stay healthy if we don't put ourselves first quite often.
2. When I'm sick, I can't take care of my family. It gives them a chance to step up and learn to take care of me, but, as with God, I can't fully care for them to the best of my ability if I'm not able to care for myself (at no time was that more apparent to me than when I was unable to toilet myself.) I think we forget that modeling self-care and self-respect, is an important way of teaching others become better people. They learn it is a good thing to care and respect themselves and it will help them make better choices when a parent isn't there to make the choices for them.
3. So putting myself last doesn't work. There are times each day I will happily do so, but I need to keep an eye on me, and caring for me and make sure that at the end of the day I made good choices for me. I am the only person in the world that I have full control over and the only person who will have to live with me all my life. If I'm to honour that gift of a body and soul, then I need to care for that body and soul.
I'm blessed these past 2 months with an open enough schedule to put myself fully first. It has made a huge difference. But it was a conscious effort to put things aside and me first because if I didn't, I could see the downward spiral I was on.
After having to put everything aside for the months with hepatitis, I've been focusing on trying to get caught up. The same happened with the gall bladder hospitalizations and then the move. I never got back to full health from those setbacks since they led to the knee/foot issues. I kept thinking "Once the move is over, then I can focus on me." But I didn't because then I was busy with other things that had been put aside during the move.
So now is the time to truly put me first. It is all about me right now!
And interestingly, since I'm feeling healthier and moving more, I'm finding I'm able to keep up with a lot of the other stuff more easily.