Postby Harmony » Sat Dec 05, 2015 5:01 pm
And now we are on to Christmas.
I need someplace to spill this all to. I don't think I have ever not decorated for Christmas. It was fun when there were kids here. 1st XH got into the Christmas mood. I always had lights outside etc. I've been giving things away every year for the past few and have less and less. Last year we put icicle lights across the porch area. And a few over the entry arbor. It was pretty.
This year I got them out again. Untangling and checking ours plus that big box of stuff DH brought home 6 months ago from the house he cleaned out. Decided to just light up the arbor archway with a lot of lights, plus we have the pine cone wreath out.
Up and down the ladder just doing that. I had visions of how I wanted it to be. Asked DH to come twist some twistees together and hand them to me, it was windy. He had other ideas how to wrap stuff over and around, and we did that and added some more... and it isn't pretty it isn't artistic it isn't nice at all. In the process of doing that I ended up throwing more lights away, half the rubbish bin full of old lights, etc. I have 1 bin of old lights left that we didn't use. I can't lift it up on the shelf myself so I think next week that's going out with the rubbish too.
DH made a remark about when we take down the arbor, we'd just do it with wire cutters. Meaning that's the last time for these lights too. I'd be upset if it had turned out pretty but it didn't.
The decorating was even a bit much for me this year. And I feel so sad. I feel like I'm giving up so much, and no matter how hard life was or what was going on I was always able to rally for the holidays. Right now I feel so discouraged I don't even want to put up the tree. Oh well, maybe I'll just go and eat ice cream.