Postby blessedw2 » Tue Jan 04, 2011 1:01 pm
dh doesn't want to do that, he says he feels like a 3 year old. dd15 said he is too demanding and unreasonable about his time vs. our time which suprised me she would say anything. I think I need to go to a support group re: this. He has never ever been one for doing things, he has always been a putzer as we call it, surrounding his days with work, his errands where he would spend his day going to one errand and coming back home and then another errand. he really never has purpose or goals and up to now it was okay as the kids and I would set our own goals. He doesn't see he fills his time up with shopping to fill the void of hobbies, his work etc. If I was the one to stay home and not drive, he would not be the one driving me, I know that as when it came to dkids lessons or I needed an extra hand to do something (when he was working or if tired) he would say he was too busy or get flustered. dh has filled up his day and purpose in shopping. the other day I became very frustrated with him as I told him the alarm clock was upstairs next to the bed.."where" I said again up next to the bed, why don't you look and you'll see it (in a nice way), he got frustrated. he said can't you tell me exactly where and basically wanted me or dd15 to show him. he has always been like that, not going beyond what is directly in front of him but being a good man I understood that it was part of his being. so I ended up saying that I understood his frustration but I have to think of everyone and that I felt I was loosing myself and being frustrated was not good for us, dd15, and for him either. he thinks I am being unreasonable, (guilt) that he doesn't ask for too much, but doesn't see that going out all day sitting and waiting is killing my spirit. I found we were leaving dd15 all the time so he could look at things. so I think finding someone dd15 and I could talk will be helpful. trying to remember less words and more grace
it is always a joy to be here with you!