hello dnancy, dbook, dharriet and all my fellow card carrying and following she's
I am focusing on my family right now and my home, thank you very much
this is another transition time in my life and I am meeting it with joy in my heart and hoping for consistency in my actions.
I have left school this semester to concentrate on ddyounger now (junior) as she is transitioning from a large public school 4000 to be exact to a small 1000 school program. As my homework grew and the papers I had to write grew larger my home became something I am not too proud of. it's not horrible like the old days but my time is pulled into too many directions. I gained the 25 back as I sat all day and my physical ability slowed down as well so the house took more to take care of and I couldn't keep up with all the transitions. I had long talks with my dh and my dmom as I could feel that my schedule was taking over what was important. dd is struggling with the change and I believe consistency and a more focused house will help with the transitions. So today I withdrew from my classes with pride, as now I know I can complete college work and get great grades but I needed to make a choice of importance in my dd's life. Actually I am relieved that I can focus on the house, my self, my husband, my younger daughter as she makes her transition, and my family. It feels really right. I am giving it up to my higher power. This has been nagging me for 3 weeks since school began again and dd started the new school last week. I couldn't keep up or even get started (so true).
I will continue my sign language and my studies ahead of time on my own - as I have the books - so that when I do go back next year I will feel confident with my knowledge. I knew it was the right thing and I feel at peace with it. It's like when I dropped all my crazy volunteering to give my time to what was important to me. I only get this one chance while she transitions to be here. So that is what I have done.
Hoping I will be able to work with everyone more on the pwyc and that I will get back to my morning exercise at the Y. My husband is relieved as after the cancer he can't do it all any more and feels that things are starting to get out of his control at the house and he too feels we both have to be here for our dd. My mother upon hearing my thoughts said she thanked God... only hoping both my daughters can see the benfit of my withdrawing from school as they have been very proud of all my hard work.