I have been on the panicky side seeing all that needs doing. my home is blew up and looks dirty. I was looking at everything I had to do and Poof panic and anxiety happened which slowed down the process.
I have 4 people in my family needed me to talk to them, care for them or just be there. I was feeling pulled in multiple directions. I was feeling guilt that the house blew up, that my mom was alone the last 5 days- she has stopped by which is so nice, that dh feels a bit on his own, dd younger is sick and dd older needed to talk about work.
So today: feeling so much better. No headache. No exhaustion
Also feeling less guilty about others needs as I realize I can only do what I can. next - so dramatic: reminding myself that I am the CEO of my home and life.(
) - maybe I will make myself an award statue - My name on top and HOME CEO on the bottom of the plaque. or just a desk plaque
So today I am just trying to live in the right now and do my morning routine and my home blessing.
I realize I have to say I love you to my family and not feel guilty.
Grateful that d twins started me out with humour. Best way to start the day.