Postby Twins' Mom » Thu Dec 07, 2023 6:33 pm
I am just "off" today. Workout was good but I never felt entirely together about it. Some strength, some stretching, some cardio.
I'm still feeling melancholy - I walked a lap with dfriend M and ddogs after I got home and she's feeling the same way, although we didn't explore reasons. For me, there's recovery from a busy, relatively stressful (very crowded streets, too many people, lots of walking in cold and rain and my mouth pain flaring up, disgruntled dh at times.) I also get emotional about seeing dd. And the flare up of the pain makes me sad because it's so unpredictable. I could be heading into a period of extreme pain, it could fade away, it could never go away and stay at the level it is now. And somehow, although I don't miss celebrating Christmas, the season reminds me of my parents and siblings and I'm sad that it's just me left. And there's the shorter days and seasonal depression. I hope that psychologically I feel better when the days lengthen.
So many things that I "should" be doing and I don't feel like doing them, either.
Dh is out again. I'm going to grill chicken on George Foreman grill - maybe put some on a salad, maybe not. Or maybe I won't grill it tonight and I'll have something else.
Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year find you a better [wo]man. Ben Franklin