— made two phone calls, made appointment with new gynecologist, confirmed appointment with dermatologist
— washed load of clothes
— went to dbil’s office and filled out paper for parking hangtag at College Town
— went to post office, renewed subscription to Guideposts magazine
-- transferred Round Up to bottle that would spray
* I know there is a lawsuit against Round Up; I figure a person who does no more yard work than I do is in very little danger.
Still need to
[x] exercise
[x] fold towels
[x] watch online video day 2
Today's topic was "Master Your Mindset." A lot of stuff that I can relate to -- self-damaging thoughts like "I don't know how to..." I don't have..."(whatever resources, money, etc.)... "I'm not like them..." (the people we admire or see as having it all together) or "I'm the only one who can..." which is a way of thinking that causes us to isolate ourselves and refuse to ask for help.
I guess I have been guilty of all these sorts of negative thoughts, but I really feel the part about "I'm not like them." I have never felt as "grown-up" as the people in my Sunday School class, or often times, my co-workers, even friends. I don't feel like I know enough or that I'm sophisticated enough. I was really totally amazed when one of them said the other day, "Lucy, YOU are an inspiration to US." I still really don't have any idea what she was talking about, but I guess it was the way I came back to Sunday School and the way I have pitched in to help with meals for other funerals (even though my meager fruit tray is really a lazy way of helping.) I don't know.
These five sessions online are all about goal setting and motivation, confidence, and productivity, and I really have no idea what my goals might be at this point. I don't have many goals right now; I'm just sorta doing the bare minimum. But I think motivation and confidence are things I really need to work on, so I'm hoping that taking notes on these videos will be useful somewhere down the road.