Party is done, dgd is "done." As soon as everyone left, she wanted to play Uno, and after a couple games, she was ready to go to bed. Of course, she wants ME to stay in the bedroom with her, so she is in our bed and I'm sitting here typing on my Chromebook. I am sooo glad y'all encouraged me to get this last year for Christmas!!! THANK YOU, again. Even now, since no one uses the computer but me, it is still so nice to be able to take this to whatever room I want to. I can watch TV and stay with her, and still keep up with you ladies.
Rose, thank you for your reassurance that I'm doing well... sometimes I don't know... when I'm alone I really don't want to do anything but sleep... except when I'm in bed at night and I can't relax and have to have the tv on all night.
The party did go well, although it was different. There was enough talk though to fill the time without any empty awkward gaps where dh should be... but I know DS and dbil missed him terribly, too. DGS wanted to light his own candles -- a job that was ALWAYS dh's -- but I did not have the good lighter, so DDIL did it. DDIL used a regular cigarette lighter -- she had told me earlier that DS wanted to just "retire" the matches. She didn't even want me to leave them laying out where DS could see them.
But we talked about dh in normal ways, without tears, just remembering some of the stories he told re: teachers, etc.
Right now, I am REALLY nervous about going to look at the tombstones on Friday. DS and I have plans to go, and I would be okay with that, but I really have this nagging feeling that I need to at least ask my uncle if he wants to go with us.

Opinions?
Duncle is the one who encouraged my dmom to go to TN to get ddad's stone. I haven't heard anything about him getting daunt's stone ordered yet, so I feel like I should at least tell him we're going up there and ask if he wants to ride with us and take care of his/daunt's also. He is a difficult person, and it makes me nervous to involve myself with him... BUT... my other girl cousin and some of the boy cousins have done sooo much for him, while I have done NOTHING. N O T H I N G. So I think I'll feel really bad if I don't offer to take him with us.
I really think he will probably make some excuse not to go when he finds out that dgrands and DS and DDIL are all going -- he doesn't do well with noisy children... BUT... he might be willing to go. I won't know till I ask, will I? And I might regret asking, but I might regret NOT asking, too.
Oh well.
Tomorrow -- haircut. DGS will spend the night.
I hope you all have a great day!