I don't really have much for ta-das today. I've been really sad all day, and maybe it's my own fault because I stayed in bed, scrolling the internet for a long time, justifying this because I have such a busy week after today. Sigh. I got to reading a FB thing about grief and the holidays and it's all true and it made me just cry and cry and cry... but I made notes and wrote it all down because it is so true. Stuff like, it's okay to feel joy and sadness at the same time, and it's okay to say no to some events that seem overwhelming, and it's normal to feel guilty when you feel happy... all these things are true.
But I finally did get up and s2s, did Bible reading, s/s master bedroom tub and shower...and got out of the house...
* drove truck
* went to post office
* made deposit for dmom -- renter sends check to me
* went to bar-b-que drive-through for supper
* started laundry, first load almost done
* talked to DS to tell him dh's shower floor is definitely going to have to be replaced... gosh... when I went in there to give it a s/s... oh my... I'm surprised I didn't fall right through to the dirt right then. It's obvious that even without being in use, there is still some water leaking under the floor.
Remember... my daddy was supposed to fix this about 15-20 years ago. He forgot, dh didn't want to be bothered with being out of use of the shower for whatever time it took, and one thing led to another. I have no doubt that if dh were alive and this shower had been in daily use for the past 8 months, we would be looking at the dirt under the floor. Sigh.
Tomorrow, DS and I are eating lunch with dgd at school. Then at 6:30, we will have the children's program at church. DGD is Mary.
Thursday, I have
-- a haircut at 1:00...
-- pick up dgrands at 3:00 and 4:00 (DGD has a special reading after-school program on Tues. & Thurs.)
-- hospital tree lighting at 5:30 (will light a candle in memory of dh)
and if I can fit it in, I'd love to be able to go to the middle school for the student vs faculty basketball game. DGS is a referee for the 2nd year!
-- Friday, DGD will spend the night.
-- Saturday, DGD will have a ballgame at 9:00 a.m.
-- Sunday church. Sunday is also my SS class party, but I'm going to tell them I am not able to attend. I hope no one asks for a reason. This is one of the events I've just got to say no to, because I just don't feel ready to be the odd member at a couple's party.
LadyM, I'm so glad you had time with your friends, even if part of the time was spent planning a funeral. It's really good that you have some ladies you can enjoy for time just for YOU. You do sooo much for everyone else!
Also very glad to see that you liked the therapist, Twins. Especially with your dd needing YOU for a listener so often, you definitely need someone to listen to you.
i'm wondering if BCBS covers therapists. I got a new card in the mail today.. I should call them and ask.
Oh -- and DEFINITELY make sure your computer is backed up completely before letting anyone work on it! I am STILL so disappointed and angry that the expert (Ha!) who worked on my old computer did not make sure everything was backed up securely before installing the new Windows system in my old computer.
WTG, Rose, and all you're accomplishing in Christmas shopping and prep.
Cathy, that is a sweet thought, the man who was obviously so happy with his purchase for a gift. It also made me cry. Sigh.
I may end up in the mall next week, but our mall is just about dead. I plan to go to one department store (not in the mall) and possibly go to B elk, which IS in the mall. Otherwise, I may buy for dbil's fiance and my dniece here in town at a couple of little boutiques we have. I do hope the fiance comes up with some ideas of what to get dbil... sigh again. Dentist had several suggestions -- socks, underwear (like I'm going to buy my BIL underwear???) some of those cheese and summer sausage gift packs... and an outdoor watch... a heavy sort of shirt-jacket... Dentist definitely does not know dbil. Shaking my head. (The dentist was in an uncharacteristically chatty mood and he brought up the subject of shopping, asked who I still had to buy for. I told him my bil was the hardest to please.) His ideas were no good, but it was fun to listen to him rattle them off. Maybe he should be a personal shopper when he retires.
I have seen some pictures on FB of some beautiful frost and snow covered trees, Nancy. OTOH, it is almost 70 degrees here today. That will change this weekend. Our weather has been a real rollercoaster the last week or so.
Harriet, I wish you lived next door. I would keep you happily mending and hemming things all the time!
Blessed, (((HUGS))) -- I am saying a prayer that your dmom has a good night, giving thanks that dh is back to being himself, and asking that things will work out for your dd and all of your family. You've really got a lot to handle, and I'm constantly amazed at how you maintain your cheerful attitude and all these responsibilities.
Looks like you are having a very productive day, Kathryn. So glad your broken tooth is fixed! I have BTDT. No fun at all!
Y'all, it has taken me almost an hour to cuop and type this. And even though I slept late, I am sleepy again now, after eating.
My plan for the night is likely to be -- nap, laundry, work on Christmas cards. Probably stay up too late again.
BTW -- no one has answered my question re: estrogen and progesterone. 
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