Re: TIDY THURSDAY
Posted: Thu Aug 07, 2014 9:03 pm
Kathryn, it doesn't seem like 2 years since you were ill. I sure understand just how quickly stuff deteriorates when we're not on top of things.
My Yuck goes back to the spring when life caught up with me, and I started taking that medicine in June, and then gradually tapering off it. It absolutely killed any ambition I had, all my energy, etc. I became agoraphobic and a sleep-aholic!
This week I could actually feel my brain "wake up". Of course, along with the energy and ambition, some of the anxiety returned. But I think I have a new way of looking at things that will be helpful. And I have given myself "permission" to just stop and rest if I'm feeling stressed, something I've never really done. It's hard living with a workaholic, makes me feel lazy and worthless unless I'm working full tilt all the time.
So I did finish at the desk and went to the bank. The daily rain storm came and I got a sandwich and sat in a parking lot and just enjoyed the radio program and the rain for a while. I also called my DGS who had been calling me. He gets sad if I don't talk to him pretty regularly, as if I don't care about him. I am lucky that he wants me to be close to me like this. He had called to tell me he'd fainted inside his house a couple days ago. He's got the flu or something respiratory going on and his Mom was trying to look at his throat and as he tipped his head back he fainted and fell to the floor. Yikes!
He said he slept a lot today.
Got my groceries. For the first time in months it felt good to be outside and amongst people. I saw myself in a mirror as I walked by, oh my, I didn't buy a lot of sweets today, that's for sure.
MT, cookies smell delicious. We had 4 people die but none of them wanted a service. We sure would have been busy.
My Yuck goes back to the spring when life caught up with me, and I started taking that medicine in June, and then gradually tapering off it. It absolutely killed any ambition I had, all my energy, etc. I became agoraphobic and a sleep-aholic!
This week I could actually feel my brain "wake up". Of course, along with the energy and ambition, some of the anxiety returned. But I think I have a new way of looking at things that will be helpful. And I have given myself "permission" to just stop and rest if I'm feeling stressed, something I've never really done. It's hard living with a workaholic, makes me feel lazy and worthless unless I'm working full tilt all the time.
So I did finish at the desk and went to the bank. The daily rain storm came and I got a sandwich and sat in a parking lot and just enjoyed the radio program and the rain for a while. I also called my DGS who had been calling me. He gets sad if I don't talk to him pretty regularly, as if I don't care about him. I am lucky that he wants me to be close to me like this. He had called to tell me he'd fainted inside his house a couple days ago. He's got the flu or something respiratory going on and his Mom was trying to look at his throat and as he tipped his head back he fainted and fell to the floor. Yikes!
He said he slept a lot today.Got my groceries. For the first time in months it felt good to be outside and amongst people. I saw myself in a mirror as I walked by, oh my, I didn't buy a lot of sweets today, that's for sure.
MT, cookies smell delicious. We had 4 people die but none of them wanted a service. We sure would have been busy.