February 21, 2025 Friday
appointments: mom pt
I forgot what it was like to have a little one wake up - I was younger then

mom came into my room over and over and over again - she also woke up early
end result - I am tired

terribly teary eyed but happy
pushing blood test to tomorrow
waiting to hear about dh's biopsy - he is in good spirits though.
What can I do if teary eyed and tired:
think positive - I am happy so I know it's just my tired brain
start the put aways before the dailies (I had people here yesterday and I could see I have too many things out that aren't necessary and need to be let go.
I also noticed that I need to paint a bit and decorate to (simply instead of wanting the "perfect" look) I have a hard time with color and seeing what is right. I tend to overthink and then nothing gets done.
meds taken both
mom was fed a very late breakfast at 11:30 woke at 11:15 (I tried to get her up)
cancelled her pt bc she was
not going to go.
filled dw with dishes from this morning and put it on.
dh did his laundry

a good thing
dh went to the local grocery store for himself
his breathing is better - well that stopped - he was struggling again - he won't let me drain him. we are waiting for the biopsy - positive thoughts -
called about the wedding shower gift - it is in the town next to us which means we will get it tomorrow hopefully.
wrote d sis in laws the news about the gift.
reminding myself of positive thoughts.
last night mom was angry at me when I moved her blanket on her =she was struggling to get it on her- slapped my hand but not hard - after she said thank you but I want to do things myself" it was an automatic on my part but I understand her frustration if someone helps her.
next: room by room put away but first take a video of the room I am in. really look at it.
see if dh will open the gate
mom: we went upstairs and I showed her where her underwear was as well as her cloths - she picked out what she liked and said - "leave" she is getting her spunk back.

remember it is a good thing!
she came down with old cloths and had the clean pants in her hands plus her night gown and a couple things - I think she got lost in the process - I told her the blue pants were the clean ones - she gave me a dirty look - said "FINE", was nasty and threw the cloths up in the air and said "I am not doing anything". I told her that she can't talk to me or act that way towards me. She tried to make a joke that pointed at me to be sensitive I have had years of practice with this. nope not happening - I was not angry but wouldn't let her be a bully. I have seen Alzheimer anger but this was a mom moment to get her way (she was probably also embarrassed that she forgot what to do). - I got the cloths together again for today and put them next to her. She sat on the couch in her underwear and under top - pouting for a while - dd said don't say anything - let her sit in her underthings - she got dressed.
she slept a bit and was better - she is being herself which means a combination of snippy, funny, nice but not warm and fuzzy, a lot of why are you doing this - this way? why don't you... I did get a passive aggressive response about drinking water - she finally drank 5 oz. nothing all day until 4:18 pm
cooked dinner and prepped veg and fruit - dw is now washing dishes again