Postby blessedw2 » Thu Jan 16, 2020 9:43 am
I have decided that I am at a point where I have to redefine my life - I am happy in marriage, family etc. but I lost me after years of care taking, babysitting, home, before that work, etc. I don't know how to get back (yet) to whom I was before. I used to think it was selfish of me to leave everyone during the day to do gym care, personal care - how silly.
I can't go back to work yet - aunt is at the end of January, mom comes back in May.
I have to figure out what is me - now.
Self improvement for sure as my body (lol) needs work.
I have to figure out things (not just fill the time).
I don't just want to be an animal care person now.
I know to be a better wife, better mom, better daughter/family member I have to be balanced with me. I just don't know what me is - it's not sad as much a new adventure. I have always been over busy caring for others. a couple years ago I did things to challenge myself - boating, learning etc. I got caught up again with caring for others. problem is - I am trying to figure out - do I want to be busy - not that as much as having a purpose.
I have always had goals...but now I have to have goals for my care and purpose. I have to find my purpose and joy. I don't want to fill it with fluff. mmmm lots to think about. I know that my depression was part of this. going through the motions has never been my thing.
it is always a joy to be here with you!