put the cleaning focus into my new planner.
it's easier for me than putting it my cards.
dishes are washing themselves
kitchen floor vacuumed
rosemary dying in its pot and have no idea why
kitchen floor washed
next put away on table etc.
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temporary guilt: lol time for a good whine, grumble and time to be Oscar the grouch
dh is bored and tried to use me to take him out of his boredom. He mentioned cleaning out my mom's fridge - I could clean it and he could get out of the house. I mentioned that the reason he wanted to go was bc he was bored and didn't want to go out on his own. He did smile bc he got caught.
He wanted me to be his driver and entertainment. It's always last minute and always when I set myself on some work.
I can't go back to being his entertainment and trying to keep him busy. It gets really bad, to the point that I don't have time or life for myself. I just can't go back to that.
the guilt and his boredom can affect me deeply.
My goal next: keep my spirits up again, let him feel his feelings and figure it out. I think it's time to help him figure out something that can give him fun and purpose. (always around cars).
Tomorrow or Monday I plan on taking him with me.
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