Yesterday my daughter said to me that I had gone back to the habit of thinking I should do it all. The house had been a tip all week and I wasn't getting anything done. Don't get me wrong, I was working!
She said to me - I have been telling her for years - "you are a perfectionist". You want to wait until the perfect moment to finish. She just figured it out
my daughter mentioned to me that I "wasn't finishing the process". I think she had heard that over the years and for the most part I had followed through. She knew what was needed but I couldn't see it. I had dropped the habit that I had worked so hard to cultivate in myself. My ADHD had led me back to stuff all over.
Yesterday, with dd older help and her born organized focus, the house went back in order. It was funny to see how I left a path of destruction as I worked.
What I saw once she helped me focus:
garbage bags left at the door to go to the bin
recycling left all over the washing machine - waiting to get to their bin
dishes put all over
food that I thought I would prep for the perfect dinner, all over the counters
a dirty stove bc I was going to get to it when I did the counters
and... every toy, bone, scrap a paper, a cat can that the dogs had grabbed through out the week.
it was like an archeological dig of my week, with out the digging.
What is sitting out that maybe needs to be finished all the way through? is there a counter that should have things that need put away?
Are there papers sitting that need to be put in place.
What is the one thing that you see that needs your focus.
You have got this! I wish you the best day ever. Follow through the process!