Ugh, called Mother... not as bad as it could have been I guess. She is not happy with my career goal, but I am not living my life for her, and unlike her belief's she DOES NOT know everything!
Have made several calls and sent emails to get into school come January, that is time sensitive so I needed to get hopping on it. Now need to file travel claim as that will mean money.
ToDo's
DTS (travel pay for USN)
Write cover letters
send out resumes
talk with Advisor (have called and left a VM)
Set-up appt at BMC
Clean something
Dinner
TaDa's d2s coffee meeting at work left VM for Advisor Talked with Mother got more info re school
BBS
"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does." — William James
it's hard for our parents to let go dscattered - I find it comes from a place of worry and sometimes for my dmom something that makes her look better and I no longer take it personally. it is really important to know it is your life and living your life is more important than living the life someone else thinks you should have. ((()))) I understand.
dmom is wanting me to go to d aunts house for Christmas day and is angry I am not going but it is her family and my dd's are home for Christmas day and want to go to d in laws. I will work to get together with my extended cousins this summer.
I lost my temper big time with dh (I do not like the person I have been the last couple days) - I was really angry when he decided to lift a very heavy piece of furniture with my help because he wants the tv to be set up. once he is focused thats it. things dropped, it was really heavy and I felt very angry so I went for a drive. I like a quiet nature but boy I have not been a very nice person this last week.
breathing in and letting go. dh wants everything back in place but I would like everything to stay in the three season room after the furniture is moved tomorrow. I want to set up for Christmas and dejunk as I go.
(((Blessed))) Just to be clear, he lifted it with your help and things fell, or things fell because he lifted it without your help?
Either way, I understand your frustration. You know you can't control your dh but you can control your reaction to him and you don't like your reaction right now.
I'm not sure how old you are (I've always pegged you as younger than me) but don't forget you are changing too as your hormones change in your body. If that is the case, that may be the reason you are not responding the way you usually do.
Not that it makes the situation better, but sometimes it helps to understand why we are so 'out of control' of our emotions. Your dh has been through a lot, and you have too. Be gentle on yourself.
I know, d kathryn... he was moving it no matter if I helped or not. he was pushing and pulling it and it was so heavy. Right now when he has something in his mind he can't see that he could get hurt no matter what one says. Not sure what's going on but I think for temporary it is the new normal. lol though you are right I needed a little perspective on who I am right now too. lol - you have helped me adjust my attitude. Thank you!!!
He has it in his mind to get certain things together which I understand,
Blessed - forgive my pessimistic view here (have been DH-less for 9 years now and love it) but he sounds like a typical man. As Kathryn said between our aging (starting the change myself) and the fact that you have a TON of stuff going on during the MOST STRESSFUL season. Men have trouble seeing the big picture we all know that he thinks that if everything is back where it goes, life will calm down... he is unable to see the process. ((()))
So I tried to get online and file my Fing (supposed to use the F word a lot today ) Travel claim and the system is not being user friendly (not that it ever is), I called the Reserve center and they tried to walk me through it to no avail. I am now going to have to go up there and try to get it done, thankfully it is less than 2 miles from my house. I also remembered that I need to pick DS13 up after school today, he was moaning last night that he has had to stay after school for one thing or another everyday this week. Ah the joy's of being an intelligent, talented, 8th grader.
I sent out a resume for the lead I got yesterday, keep your fingers crossed it would actually work with what my plans and family needs are.
ToDo's DTS (travel pay for USN) {have to go in to get it done} talk with Advisor (have sent an email)
Set-up appt at BMC
Clean something
Dinner
TaDa's d2s coffee meeting at work left VM for Advisor Talked with Mother got more info re school Write cover letter send out resume
BBS
"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does." — William James
{{{Blessed}}} been there done that with the bull in a china shop experience! I don't think men in general ever get or understand the moving furniture to clean under it thing or rotation during seasonal changes.
{{{Scattered}}} been there I used to swear like a sailor until I prayed one time and it was like God was scraping flames or something hanging off my tongue and I've not had the problem so much after that.
Hoping this is a blessing in disguise with new opportunities for you.
{{{Lo & all concerned}}} Trying to look at the positive in this maybe having things as they are for the holidays is best and it will be less stressful after the holiday season is over.
Granny duty has begun.
Dgson is trying to get a plan so he remembers to bring his homework home in his bag he uses three different areas in the class room and it is not good for him as far as remembering the various subjects. At least he likes coming here after school and has remembered the bus for our house!
blessed, you need to get some S uper S liders. They sell them at W almart usually around the home improvement type things. I have some and I managed to turn our bed 90 degrees by myself. Our bed has a headboard plus a footboard. Then I lifted each corner of my heavy filled cedar chest and put sliders under them. I was able to move it across the room. I wanted to move the triple dresser and removed all the drawers. Tried to lift a corner and no go. It has an attached mirror. So dh lifted and I slid in the sliders. I think they cost less than $10.00. You can also use them to move appliances.
Hi y'all
Geesh scattered... Hugs to you. It's hard to imagine having to tell some you were fired for swearing. I keep trying to give up swearing every new years... Hasn't happened completely but I am getting better. Never swore in the classroom but felt like it many times.
Got back from dr appointment. I like her!!! I will have a MRI done, I expected that plus she gave meds for my headaches. I know by her questions and examinations she's on the hunt for something. Don't know what but I can't worry about it till the tests come back. Meds my old insurance wouldn't covered is covered by my new insurance. That makes me really happy.
For some reason I am really tired today.... Gonna fed doggies and then eat some protein....be back later
Live boldly, take risk, no regrets...Jillian Michaels
blessed, I do think you did right to move away from the situation, but I don't think you should just drop it forever. When things have calmed down, could you recall the incident to him and say how it made you feel? I'm not really worried about your well being so much - I figure you're fine - but I think he could use some perspective if he's handling situations in ways that don't seem "like himself". Surely he sees that a highly unusual reaction came from you and there must be a reason.
helia, have a meal with the Advil.
Agreeing with Nancy that the new opportunities could be very positive, like possibly starting school with the January calendar, scattered. I don't know about the idea of "getting it all out of your system" before New Years. LOL, seems like that might work the other way and you'd be better off practicing for your resolution.
Time for school pick-up. BBL
If you don't believe in miracles, you're not being realistic.
Forgot something...
Okay I'm sorry about your delay. Just so you know you're not alone; a friend of mine lives in your state.her situation is similiar. She has been fighting for guardianship for almost 4 years. Shes had to deal with delay after delay after delay... New judges, new lawyers etc. From what she tells me your state moves very slow. I was hoping your case would be different. Hers is still not resolved yet. I know it must be so frustrating for you. Hugs...
Live boldly, take risk, no regrets...Jillian Michaels
d2s
meeting at work
Talked with Mother
) Travel claim and the system is not being user friendly (not that it ever is), I called the Reserve center and they tried to walk me through it to no avail. 
talk with Advisor (have sent an email)
At least he likes coming here after school and has remembered the bus for our house!
- but I think he could use some perspective if he's handling situations in ways that don't seem "like himself". Surely he sees that a highly unusual reaction came from you and there must be a reason.