Pretend this isn't here lol as I need to get this off my chest - IT can be a good thing - FOR ME -
well it's been a difficult two days and all about the house. dh has been killing himself on the lawn and I haven't done one thing outside. He also has been doing dishes not all the time but the house looks unkept.He feels like he is doing everything, he did 10 dishes. He needs a hobby and he has to get out of the house. He becomes guilt type person and passive aggressive - instead of being direct which I can't handle and tell him and then he said its because I am stubborn, then he wants kids to do things and he complains to me - because he's not direct they don't know what he wants them to do, he is a stickler about the front room and the dogs slept on the white couch.
dh is over his head and I am going to hire the lawn care even though he feels he can do it. it's too much for him, he is overwhelmed!!!
dh always looks annoyed even if he isn't - I told him I am hiring someone... it frustrates him but he and I can cut the grass but there is so much work to be done outside and I and dh no longer are 25 and I have things going on with dd younger. I don't know how he can be home every second.
dd older today said that she can't live like this... her shirt is in the was (and truth be told she should have looked for it the day before) and she WANTED something done today but later apologized for her tone, problem is that her whole floor is filled with her cloths and she didn't plan ahead.
dd younger did not clean the bathroom like dh asked, dogs.... hair, cats litter, dd younger is exhausted and emotional - lost allllll of her pictures from her phone as the phone went back to 2009 all from her trip. so now I have been awake for 2 nights
I want to be a good wife but does that mean I should give up summer and stay home or be unsocial and be home. it's not what I want.
I want to be a good wife, mother, daughter, daughter in law, sister
dh - I am going to have to set up a writing thing for him so he can tell exactly what he wants the kids to do.
he tends to look always crabby lately and he thinks he is not
I will work on the things I need to do so I can help where I can but I also will keep dd younger busy
dd older - put all laundry that is hers in her room and let her get it done
dd younger - figure out her lessons and expect her to get work done
eat at the table period
cats and dogs are making most of the mess - so I need to brush them daily, keep litter boxes clean and lock up dogs at night so they don't sleep on the furniture
I need to go back to a weekly plan
I will set up my calendar and everyone can tell me their needs and I will put it on where I can and if not... well they may have to wait until following week
with out me exercising and taking care of myself I can't do all that I want.
OKAY COMPLAINING DONE!!! THAT FEELS SO MUCH BETTER.